In the late 1990s, I had never heard of Reiki or energy healing other than maybe seeing it done in a movie, by a ‘medicine man’ or some asian guy high up on a mountain somewhere. I certainly didn’t believe it could be done by any ‘normal’ person.
I am an empath. I can usually feel when others around me aren’t feeling quite right physically or emotionally. The physical stuff can be quite obvious because you can often see it whether it’s a limp or a slight facial expression. I am also very sensitive to how people react emotionally during conversations. I’m not saying I’ve never unknowingly said something stupid that made someone feel bad, it’s just that more often than not, I kinda get a real-time emotional play-by-play of how others are doing. And as much a
s possible, I want people around me to be well and happy.
At the time, my wife (now ex-wife) regularly had migraines. Of course this bothered me a lot. This one time, we were lying in bed. The lights had been off for a while and my wife was lying still, moving the least possible. I put my hand on top of her head, closed my eyes and visualized the migraine leave her head and go into my hand. I didn’t realize it at the time but I was in a meditative state; my hand felt locked in place.
After about ten to fifteen minutes, she quickly turned her head toward me and asked me if I had a headache. I was kinda startled because she had limited her movements because of the migraine and also, I was in this meditative state and maybe even half-sleeping by then (half-sleep and meditation are very similar to me). Then she said:
– “Do you have a headache?”
– “No I don’t. Why?”
– “My headache is gone!”
Then, since I was half asleep already I think I just fell asleep trying to comprehend exactly what had just happened. She must have also fell asleep from the relief.
I’m not sure what made me try that. It’s as if a part of me knew it would work and just took over. The other part of me must not have agreed, because it was still incredulous, trying to dismiss what had taken place like we often do. “Oh, it was just heat from my hand that relaxed her and she forgot about the headache.” …or something stupid like that. “…a placebo effect…” (Hmmm, ‘placebo effect’ that sounds like a future topic…)
After that, we kept ‘treating’ her migraines the same way for some time. I still didn’t really understand or believe what was really happening (other than that other part of me that did). I had a hard time even talking about it. You see, I was very insecure about myself in general. So there was no way that I would be able to do something cool like this. I’m pretty much over those insecurities today; I’m fairly confident about most aspects of myself. Although, some insecurities creep up once in a while but not very often, thankfully.
Unfortunately, we broke up shortly after discovering this and I shoved the whole thing aside and never really thought about it. …until about 10 years later.
** I was planning on finishing this topic in one post, but I’ll keep it a bit shorter and split them. My next post will be about how I re-discovered my healing abilities ten years later.